Runaway Train

Ten years ago, I was staying at a hostel in Buenos Aires. I was nearly five months into what would be a six month backpacking trip through South America. Things were not going so well. Repeated illnesses revealed that my constitution was too fragile for the continent. I began longing for the home I eagerly left behind, or at least somewhere more comfortable, but my ego pushed me to continue. I didn’t want to appear like a quitter, and I still needed material for the book I planned on writing about the experience. Then for the first time I heard the 1992 song “Runaway Train” by the band Soul Asylum.

It seems no one can help me now
I’m in too deep
There’s no way out
This time I have really lead myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here nor there

I immediately identified with the song. There I was, healing on a dorm room bed in Argentina from yet another stomach bug after quitting my job and selling most of my possessions to travel to the third world and hang out with hippie backpackers who wouldn’t stop telling me that poor people are “so happy.” But I didn’t want to go back to my career. I was developing a taste for a new kind of freedom, and there was no way I could deal with middle managers and pointless meetings again. I had to carve a new path.

Fast forward ten years. The stomach parasites and bed bugs were a distant memory. The pub crawls and ten-hour bus rides through winding mountain roads were no more. I’ve since sold tens of thousands of books and achieved a modest level of comfort. My apartment is small but located in the middle of the city. It’s stocked with all the comforts I need, including a bread machine and panini maker. I’m not aching for more women, fun, or adventure like before, and I even experience fleeting moments of bliss when the feeling of the rain and the sound of the wind strike me in a certain way. Yet in spite of this, I still feel that there is a missing ingredient, a nagging emptiness I cannot fill.

I loaded a music playlist on YouTube, hit the shuffle button, and began cooking dinner. Midway through, Runaway Train came on. Instantly, images of South America rushed through my mind, both the highs and the lows. I smiled and reminisced. How long ago those times were, as if they happened in another life.

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life’s mysteries seem so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am, just drowning in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Once these lyrics set in, I stopped stirring my chicken dish and turned my head towards the music. My throat tightened. It’s true that I fantasize of leaving my city every day, but to where? I don’t know if I have the energy to start over again. And every day I think of finding a good woman, but how? I’m too burned out and broken, and if I could make it to nearly thirty-nine years of age without a face that I could love, chances are I could make it another thirty-nine years.

I know that as comfortable as my apartment is, and as much I enjoy eating the food that comes from my bread machine and panini maker, they are not enough to make me stay. The three friends I have in town will one day move on. Ten years have passed me by and I’m as rootless as I was in Buenos Aires. I’m still on the hostel bed, trying to improve my situation and become whole, but that outcome becomes ever more distant. I’ve stayed away for so long that I no longer even have a home to return to.

Did I really expect my essential nature to become something totally different? Did I believe that a change of scenery could affect my internal state of mind? My energy is lower today, and I am calmer, but the ache remains. The dissatisfaction that was born when I was born simmers underneath the surface, brought out by song. It has never left me, and I don’t think it ever will, no matter where I go and what I do, because whatever train I take, my self will always travel with myself. Maybe one day I can look out the window and just enjoy the ride.

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82 thoughts on “Runaway Train”

  1. Hate to derail the message of the article but stay away from raw or cold foods (even ice) if you’re from the west and travel outside of it. It’s not necessarily about cleanliness (this can happen to you even in singapore) but mostly a different germ pool due to the climate and such. Just thought you should know.

    1. This article reminds me of all male travelers. The novelty is hard to maintain and we also see the new in more jaded terms. Mark ames an amazing expat discussed the same sentiment ten years ago in the glorious exiled magazine.
      Roosh forget about the 2014 attack You handled it well. You have financial independence and a great social scene. You also have a large audience.
      Move to a bigger city. Go to a better land. You don’t need a perfect woman and divorce laws aren’t enforced un the fsu.
      I wrote you an email about this subject and my own victimization in academia. You should self psychosis 2014 out of your mind and do what ever you want. You don’t need employment so the sjw lemmings can’t hurt you.
      I know you hate Asia but japan was my magical place. I did not have the luxury car f staying unlike you. I never got over it

  2. Who cannot relate to a bit of existential drift? Been there, repeatedly. That’s the thinking man’s gift/curse. First one must live, then one may philosophize or stand to reason. Perhaps you are seeking “God” or some other form of enlightenment that has yet to crystallize convincingly…this is also the curse of the intelligent, modern, thoughtful male.

    In the search for meaning, I’ve delved into the outlandishness of night life and game, its pyrrhic victories of the ego, the ills of nostalgia as youth fades, self-deception and the disease-like qualities of social sleight-of-hand. A truer compass bearing was needed, something more lucid and concrete as my youth faded.

    I started seeing a dichotomy surfacing in my night life, and even in my most successful pursuits of women: In the club/party/scene you are more apt to encounter the tragic man who has an almost paranoiac sense of unrecognized greatness; missing success and fame, he turned within and gnawed at his own soul. In a crowded room, he was absolutely alone, with not a single friend; and between one and none there lies an infinity.

    Observationally, I love how Santayana once resolved, candidly: “I believe there is nothing immortal… No doubt the spirit and energy of the world is what is acting in us, as the sea is what rises in every little wave; but it passes through us; and, cry out as we may, the wave will move on. Our privilege is to have perceived it as it moved.”

    CONCLUSION: Life is short, there’s FOMO and YOLO contaminating the social scene, but truth works far and lives longest; let us speak the truth. The small hypocrisies we own are first amplified, then dispelled, as we search in the dimmest corners for the voice of Wisdom itself. Paraphrasing Bergson, when we “prove” or “disprove” a philosophy we are merely offering another one, which, like the first, is a fallible compound of experience and hope. As experience widens and hope changes, we find more “truth” in the “falsehoods” we denounced—in the artifice of the metropolitan night or otherwise—and perhaps more falsehood in our youth’s eternal truths. Ever forward in the quest…

    1. I agree.
      Notoriety from building a career based on a lifestyle of chasing tail cannot begin to quench the thirst of being soul sick.
      Not judging, just how i see things.

      1. Actually, you kinda ARE judging.
        Look, you judgmental and “virtuous” guys posting your bullshit here against Roosh: His writings in recent months show him evolving. Maturing, becoming more introspective, and making some pretty deep observations not just about culture and society, but about his own life.
        Yeah, he’s 39. So what? We’re all different. Some hit his current level of emotional maturity at a younger age, and some guys are in their 50s and 60s and are still childlish, selfish, and hedonistic fucks.
        Give Roosh a break. I see him evolving for the better as a person. He may feel like he’s missing something, but a wife and kids and little house with a white picket fence ain’t always the answer.

        1. And what are you going to say when he evolves into someone spiritual with a wife and a kids on the way? For most men, being as complete as you can be involves a family and strong spiritual beliefs. 39 is getting pretty late in the game for the family part, though for a man it’s never really too late for either until your dead.

        2. I think they are right.
          40 is a big passsge. Huge.
          Roosh has opened a lot of doors for many of us. Given validation for our masculine sexuality, and legitimized it.
          But hey, 39?
          Everyone ages, and questions his assumptions and path in life.
          I did.
          I was early 40’s, single, and pretty comfortable. Just on cruise control.
          Until I saw this country video. “I Meant To Do That”
          It showed an old man, in a subway car, alone at night, pulling out of an empty station
          As the train pulled out, you would see his visions of a beautiful bride, precious daughter. What could have been….he meant to do that.
          It hit me like a cannonball to the gut. I realized, it wasnt just goimg to come in the mail. So I really went aftet it. Found a really cute wife. Had kids, van, house.
          Then a divorce.
          I gotta tell you, it was worse than my transplant
          My wife cheated on me. She got the kids, and I was devastated. It was only the love of my sons that kept me ftom suicide.
          I was extremely angry and cynical. That is when I found Mens Rights web.
          One thing I saw, was that I was not alone.
          I also learned not to live in anger and cynicism. Its destructive.
          My divorce destroyed my life, and I really wanted to hurt my wife. I had my chances, and could have played hardball, but did not.
          Now? I have all my sons. 3 from the first marriage and gorgeous 4th with my 2nd wife. Still have the house and wifey is a cutie.
          Life brings us to bridges, cross roads and epiphanies. Some of the greatest lessons are learned in the bittet pain and darkness of the valleys.
          I learned not to let doubt, despair and cynicism take everyyhing. To believe in the good. To have faith in a loving God who has never abandoned me.
          Believe in yourself

        3. Ed, I don’t think it’s judging so much as imparting ancient wisdom. It is just a fat that people who live a life with a hope for something greater on the other side enjoy greater satisfaction, love, sex and happiness than those who don’t (Northwestern University 20 year Marriage, Sex and Happiness study 2015). Roosh has been instrumental in helping me manage my Christian marriage to greater heights with his insights on female hypergamy. I hope to share my insights with him. Jesus changes everything for the better.

        4. Adherence to wisdom through the ages is a huge dividing line between left and right where we look at wise men and what they have said and learn from that where the left dismiss everything that is old as though only the young of this one generation have knowledge

      1. It’s not about a wide.
        It’s about questioning your values, even the most basic.
        It’s about realizing, failure does not make your choices wrong. But so many do.
        I think very many come to a hard point where they have to make a decision as to how they will live. So, is life something good, or a trickbag? People? Religion?
        My personal, rock bottom philosophy is that there is lots of evil out there. Overwhelming. Our choice is to stand against, or go with it. Remember, “For evil to triumph, it is sufficient that good men do nothing”
        But good has a cost. Often requiring a sacrifice. Do we still believe in it then?
        Rationally, we should do good, because it’s good. Not for advantage.
        Nor do I think Roosh went thru anything this basic. But I do think he is questioning his basic belief system.
        My story was simply my story, to illustrate. Love, family, kids are important to me. I feel I have succeeded. Real fruits
        After my divorce, I was ready to abandon my beliefs. I was going to look out for Number One. Just use hookers for my needs. But I could not. It required me to abandon all I believed in. I just could not. Even to this day, I am still clapping for Tinker bell

    2. You holy-rollers are something else. You think the same-old same-old is THE SOLUTION. It isn’t. It just creates a whole slew of other problems. If having children is part of the process that reifies a man, fine. But there is NOTHING positive a man can get within marriage that he cannot get without marriage. There needs to be drastic marriage reform. There needs to be negotiated sunset terms about how many children will be had and about when the divorce will occur. You trad-cons are living on borrowed time. You’re still reading newspapers and using typewriters when everybody else is using gigabytes and cyberspace. I understand your disposition though…blaming men for everything. You masturbate to the abuse women throw at you. But those of us who are sane and have a higher-time preference than that, choose not to indulge in masochism. But I still ‘support your people’s right to marry.’

      1. It’s not about that.
        That was my story. I am a romantic. Raised in a big religious family.
        It’s about questioning your rock bottom beliefs, then going on. We’re you wrong? Did you fail because you were wrong? Or do you believe that failure does not invalidate and seek to continue?
        Everyone has vote beliefs, and inevitably comes to a crossroads and questions them

      2. Not at all. We have squared our faith in the Holy Bible with the psychological advances that have ben made. We see how important it is to make our wives submit to us versus the culture of uplifting and supporting your wife in her endeavors. ALL of my Christian friends who have done so are divorced or emotionally castrated. Roosh does good work. Jesus does better work.

  3. I think we as men can also set our expectations too high in what we expect of life, and women. The problem with all the negative experience is that we do become jaded about life and relationshits. It becomes very difficult to have any positive vision at all of the horizon.
    You know the true gift of being young men is that in our ignorance we are not weighed down by wisdom and experience and are ripe victims to it but instead act more free and yes, reckless, and as we enter the ages of wisdom from the experiences we just turn jaded and less hopeful of positive outcomes in our waning years. Nearly impossible to keep any positivity towards our future. perhaps that is the ultimate goal to be able to revisit the innocence of the burden of the knowledge, to not be anchored by it.
    I don’t see it a weakness to be nostalgic (as music we enjoyed from our younger years often makes us, it is why I don’t listen to it anymore or rarely because it always evokes so much inexplicable sadness that I would rather not feel. Too much like I have lost something that I can never find, so many old wounds, so many lost dear friends).
    I see it as strength to be able to know and experience that loneliness and know what it is made of, that is has a real and WORTHY nostalgic past an I certainly won’t see it as an exploitable weakness because it is my own and no one can take it away from me. Somewhere in all that there is a reason, a direction to go, there is a goal to reach for in all that doubt, and all that self imposed emotional isolation. You will figure it out Roosh, it will suddenly become clear one day, likely because you are waxing nostalgic…and then just like that, the inspiration will come. But the answer and direction can only come from one person. Yourself.

    1. It sounds bad to say but the honest advice I give to guys all the time is to lower their standards. Every guy wants a perfect 10 to be a perfect housewife. A lady in the street and a freak in the sheets. It doesn’t happen. Lower your standards for something and you might find you need less than you think. Same is true for where you live and your job and your sleep. You don’t need a dream job. You need enough to feed your family a pursue your interests. Lower your standards for what makes you happy and happiness becomes achievable.
      The other advice I give guys is don’t marry white women. It’s also good advice people don’t want to hear.

      1. With a white women why would you ring them what does it bring you they don’t need a visa? You are giving them an option on half your shit, and you get an option of probably about 10% of their shit what with the courts being so biased.

        1. We are talking about the women with the biggest reputation for divorce-rape here and the ones who know how to work divorce.

      2. “Lower your standards.” While this may be good advice for the average man whom wants a slightly better than average and hopefully fulfilling life, it is basically ironic that this advice is presented on a website called Return of Kings. Pretty sure that’s not how you become a King, or anything similar.

        1. i dont recommend that, and didnt mean it as ,”here settle for s 3 4 or 5, its the best you can do”, or to mean wife up a slut or here take this psycho maniac and give it a home. not at all. a man can’t ignore any of the signals or characteristics that a woman exudes if he’s going to make and accommodation to accept a woman as his other. he should still be fully discerning but he may have to accept one or two faults. but absolutely agree with Return Of Kings General consensus that he should find a girl in that golden biological Zone of age if he means to have healthy children. but I fully understand if he is very standoffish to wanting to get it involved in a relationshit given women’s Nature’s these days. and I certainly wouldn’t advise to ever get married in this climate but rather to culture or a long-term relationship without entangling legal contracts and certainly not for easily available pussy.

        2. Men and women expect too much from marriage. You can only be king of a kingdom. No kingdom, no king.

  4. Find a few acres and a house somewhere. Find a country girl who loves to exercise, has no social media, and a count of less than 15. It’s not perfect, but for me, it’s enough to make me content. I have good work to do on my farm and with my writing, I have a decent woman I’m not overly worried about leaving, and I won’t be crushed if she does. It’s enough.

    1. I feel you except for that count of 15 thing. The statistics I’ve seen made it look like once she beds that many, there’s not much measurable difference compared to bedding 100, in terms of likely to fail the marriage.

      1. I have infinitely more respect for a female who dresses like a slut and puts out than a female who dresses like a slut and doesn’t put out, AKA useless, power-tripping attention whore. That’s why I have nothing but respect for prostitutes (honest, hard-working prostitutes, not the deceitful, self-entitled shit-eating IG #blessed #selfmade #modelgoals #buildinganempire #strong #independent whores).
        And let’s be realistic here, 99% of western females dress like sluts, whether it’s leggings, miniskirts, short skirts, bikinis, high heels, halter tops, sports bras, jumpers, skin-tight jeans, whatever.
        15 partners could still be a healthy number depending on a woman’s age. It shows that she likes to be fucked and satisfy men and embraces her biological role of cum receptacle and stress reliever.

  5. Good article, Roosh. Always interested in your personal and innermost thoughts. You’re a deep thinker. But don’t over analyze what you don’t have, or your shortcomings. You are still a smart and pretty accomplished guy, in my opinion.
    A lot of guys wouldn’t mind being you, dude.

    1. These websites are something quite big in terms of influence. Money really just buys you shiny things and social oneupmanship. It is sad that these cannot really be monetized as they would spiral upwards if they could be. You could reinvest in full-time writers and that would spiral it all upwards but you can take pride in being one of the few who can stand outside of the mainstream just a tiny bit and take the flak for that.

  6. Roosh you think too deeply main. Need to set shallow goals and head for them and forget this shit its only gonna get you depressed. If you are smart enough and start looking at logic once you can discount religion and mysticism logically then you can easily discount humanism as value needs something ultimate or its also not there ( complexity doesn’t equal value outside of Dawkins primitive philosophical mind ) and then its very easy to spend your time fighting against nihilism which is a lot of what depression in the first world is.

  7. You’re depressed, because the life you’re living is a big fucking joke. Everybody is moving on in life, but you’re on the same level as someone who is in their 20s.
    You have no wife or kids. At the age of 39 you have missed the boat. The only women you will get are either the leftovers or they already have kids (no rational man wants to nurture the kids of someone else).
    That being said, the ancients knew there are different phases in your life. At some point in your life you will feel the need to start a family. You feel depressed, because you’re not fulfulling your needs, which is to have a wife, kids and family.

    1. “You’re depressed, because the life you’re living is a big fucking joke.”
      NO, you moron! Roosh is neither depressed nor His is life isn’t “what you said” !!
      He is a real MAN. He raised His voice against the pussy centric Society, against the gender biased Laws, against the fuckin “politically incorrect” shit. He shared His Observations, Ideas, Opinions, Experiences about life & and on how to deal with (arrogant) pussies, with fellow MEN.
      His efforts are not going away and He has full support of MEN all over the world.
      “You have no wife or kids”
      Its a BIG reason to “rejoice”, you dumb-ass.
      He will NOT be “divorce raped” and doesn’t have to pay “alimony” !! He don’t have to “entertain” an ever demanding & ungrateful female !!
      And He can plenty of pussies (hookers, easy-money-makers, whores, …) !!
      “which is to have a wife, kids and family.”
      Are you kidding !?, you shithead.
      Whats the guarantee that your wife will stay loyal to you and be with you all along !? How you are sure that your wife will take care of you if you are physically injured or disabled !? How can you prevent your kids from being “brainwashed” with all the rubbish & stupid things going around (schools/colleges/univ., tv, cinema, sports, news, media etc.) !?

        1. Hi Edward, nice to see you around, if not too often! Hope you take a bit more time and stick around.
          Don’t know the reason, but it is very refreshing & relaxing to interact with ROKers in general and guys like You, Clark Kent (and few others) in particular.
          Good Night Edward.

      1. I hear a lot about what you are saying, but most men, if they end up dying without children, will die sad, lonely and unfulfilled. Just don’t legally marry anyone, and child support, men just have to risk it. My kids are the best thing in my life, followed by my business, followed by my wife (not legally married, but still my wife, she is the mother of my children), oh, yeah, hunting probably ties with the wife.

        1. “most men, if they end up dying without children, will die sad, lonely and unfulfilled”
          It will happen regardless because the kids dump you in a nursing home. Are you ready to watch your kids destroyed by this culture? In my dads case, his daughters are man hating feminists who havent given two shits about him in twenty years. Im all hes got, but im three thousand miles away.

      2. An empowered woman is more likely to take a 5-year-old’s weeine up her ass than allow a grown man to talk to her without a false accusation and police corruption.

        1. @1488, sickening but so true… You hit the nail on that, and the reason these empowered women probably will take that from a 5 year old is because we live among many reptilians, and most females these days are reptilian or hybrids and they LOVE to feed off the innocent, clean and pure energy from young children. That’s why so many of these lesbians and other swamp faggots and creatures always work close to children either as teachers or community leaders, as coaches, in churches or in day care. This shit is real, and unfortunately most people don’t see it or believe in it enough.
          Love the Screenname bro…
          <Also a 1488er.

    2. No a man’s life isn’t over at 39, a woman’s life is if she hasn’t spent the previous 20+ years in loyal soulful service unto her patriarch master. See, the older and wiser a man gets and the longer the beard, the more he qualifies to lasso the reigns on fresh young trim and captain a family. A 39 yo childless woman is done but a man can start whenever he durn well becomes inclined – especially if he is proficient in the art of making bank or obtaining/leveraging property for his control or use.
      Roosh may be 80 when the chips fall into place and he knocks up a keeper or two and things just plug right in to keeping a family fortress from that point on. A man can’t count on breaking down and dying at any age. The old folk’s/geriatric care industry has seniors propagandized into thinking stupid shit like that they’re gonna die soon and to waste resources padding their ass with cushions and taking feel good pills and not going out and gaming some tweety virgin skeet to keep your western bloodlines and your balls rolling. I call bullshit on the entire assisted living/retirement euthanizing industry. I’m older than Roosh and I have a much younger woman that is popping out babies like a stack of pancakes. One two three. So gimmee some more syrup aye.

    3. Are you kidding? He is in his prime for wife hunting if that is what he wants to do. Not in the west but that is the last place he should be looking. Spent time in the FSU and 8 years in Asia. He could find many. Well at least I could and did. There are lots of women in Asia in their 20’s who would be happy to marry him. If at age 53, I could get a 25 year old, so could he. My 63 year old friend recently had twin girls with his 33 year old Thai wife. I like Asian women because the prevalent concept of “Face” keeps them in line. They are generally good women. Often not Christian but Buddhism is ok with me.

  8. Fights against degeneracy while he is a degenerate himself. Talks about self improvement while he needs self improvement. Gives advice for how to get a girl longterm and he cannot find or get a girl longterm. Talks about religion and he is not religious himself or studied it. Roosh has nothing to do with traditionalism and how can we take advice from someone like him?!! The good thing is he is able to bring light on the issues but do not take advice from him to solve it.

    1. Why insult him man none of us live perfect lives and he has had a big impact. I do think this fetish for a virgin when you are that age has to be dropped tho. Its like saying you’ll only start a company if it is an idea as good as Facebook. Your genetic imperative is to pass your genes and even if these chicks are not ideal if you ranked them many would 50% work out well.

  9. Every man should have his main thing in life. If Your main thing is writing about women, You should never put it aside. Carpenter is carpenter. Banker is banker. Teacher is teacher. And so on. Women is always second. But You write about them- so , You should make interactions with them, for Your work. People are waiting for new stories ,new adventures!

  10. Roosh my brother you are living in the prison of self awareness.
    At times like this I envy my mouth breathing contemporaries (a little).

  11. As a make you are able to procreate, if you choose, until 45. After 50 the statistical likelihood that you will have a child with an issue rises (curve begins at 45). I’m not saying that is the solution, but it’s a useful data point to keep in perspective.

  12. They say ignorance is bliss…. I would rather the burden of self awareness and being red-pill.
    No matter the difficulties I’m sure it will bring more satisfaction and comfort on life’s reflection toward the end.

  13. I have no advice for you Roosh. And I won’t judge you. I can’t! I have five of your books and the short story, The Brazilian Actress. BTW A Dead Bat In Paraguay is a great book. I like it better than BANG! Cuddle And Compliment is funny.
    What the hell! Allow me to suggest this.
    In the early days of ROK, about two or three months in, you posted an article here about Porfirio Rubirosa. Remember that?
    I have The Last Great Playboy and Chasing Rubi. I like both those books. And I count Rubi more important than Hugh Hefner.
    In the beginning, Porfirio Rubirosa took stock of himself. He realized he had everything he needed to be successful. Everything, that is, except money. And we know how he went about getting that, don’t we! He became the most successful playboy of all time.
    So how does that relate to you, you ask….
    Simple.
    Roosh.
    You should consider setting your sights higher than ever before. I mean to the moon. Then go about seducing rich and famous debutantes. I am serious.
    Let others disparage me if they will. Let the scoffers be damned. But you already have everything you need to do this successfully. So you should climb to the next level. And slip the panties off hot celebrity women.
    It is the sweetest revenge.
    I am not kidding.
    Anyway, I may read Dead Bat again. I do like the book.

    1. Not a bad idea, Eddie. He’s already got a big head start on the Rasputin beard too. He could cut a cocksman’s swath across European high society and smooth talk his way into matronly millions.

  14. hey roosh.
    i dont know you but from what ive read around here it might seem to me youre focused on finding flaws on women. the perfect woman doesnt exist. neither does the perfect man. so you will have to find a woman that will love you too with your attributes AND your negative aspects. its a 2 way thing. of course when chosing a partner, a life companion, analisis is needed, you have to put some good thought into it but you also have to follow your heart.
    id advice you to be a little less pre judgemental, for example if a girl has a tatoo that doesnt necesarly mean shes a slut, stupid etc.
    my marrige isnt perfect but im content with it, having a young son helps me feel realized like a man, with a purpose.
    i wrote an article here a little while ago, it was related with the ayahuasca. id sincerly recomend you try it. its profound healing will provide you with a lot of answers. you can come back here to southamerica to do it so you hit 2 birds with one stone. anyways if youd be intersted just let me know.

    1. Chris Gibson,
      Could you possibly be any more of a CUCK and a Feminist Male!?
      Like a typical liberal, you always talk about how “nobody’s perfect” and that’s just a manipulation / shaming tactic to cause Men to doubt themselves. KNOCK IT OFF.
      Stop making excuses for Women’s bad behavior, and YES if a woman does tattoo herself, she is absolutely a SLUT and let some stranger modify her body. Tattoos also open portals to the demonic world. The fact that you cannot recognize this proves how much of a naive cuck you are.
      You seem to think that women’s behaviors can be excused but that a Man needs to be less picky, you should be ashamed of yourself. Just because you have shortcomings and inequities in your own marriage, doesn’t mean you need to self project your own scenario onto other Men’s lives just because they strive to gain something and someone superior than your lame wife.

      1. relax internet tought guy.
        i can tell youre a real badass talking shet behind a screen. thats what a real man does, you know.
        wild guess here…. youre womanless, online alpha, small in the pants

  15. Roosh, do you feel like you’ve truly conquered anything.? Kings are conquerors by trade. Maybe that’s what you are missing.

  16. You the man Roosh…
    You’ve accomplished something big for a lot of men around the world.
    Saved the way my life was going with women. At some point I was disappointed with my life couldn’t figuring what was making me unhappy…
    One day I saw your blog Roosh.com and read each post.. that was the great equalizer there were no going back..
    The hypocrisy of society got clearer then spring water.
    I felt better..
    Thank you Roosh 👊🏽

  17. We always have such life reflective moments “triggered” by things which related to past experiences. It’s okay, and somehow rather fun too.
    After some days of smirks and giggling for me there are always two options moving forward:
    – plan and do something (new) for my own benefit, or
    – for society
    You always know where your heart is. Just follow it.

    1. The song is a classic masterpiece whom many of you fond of. But this particular newer rendition will make you “triggered”
      You’ve been warned =)

  18. Dear Roosh,
    I wish to reply to you, and i’ll do in the same way, with some songs
    Now, to understand what you (we?) expect from our woman, maybe somethings like this:

    However, maybe this is how you (or i may say, we!) feel now, about life, societies and women, please listen especially from the second part (02:50)

    now, What may we do to improve our lives, just understand one important aspect of life! so please listen to this song:

    I hope you got it and well, closing my reply, my last friendly advice will be this, Roosh:

    Take care Bro.

    1. That’s some old 80s funk like what they played on the radio back when they had actual DJs with morning shows where they told pretty decent sexist and racist jokes. You must be up there in years like me. But you know even those old music vids were loaded with subliminal messaging.
      The 80s was a killer for the west. EVERY state finally passed spousal rape laws and the debt went tenfold into the trillions. In the 70s you could come home and plunk your legally married wife at will and legal scholars even called the term ‘spousal rape’ oxymoronic. HFCS also secretly replaced all beet and cane sugar in processed foods. The 80s was a killer. Keep the eating wholesome (vit E,B) and you won’t need a toupee. I don’t.
      OF LATELY one music video that young whippersnappers are bee-bopping to REALLY kept my eyes peeled. I stopped what I was doing just to observe MANDY MOORE and her mouth/lips. Notice there’s something subliminal in the vid to keep making you focus on her mouth/lips. Sure they’re nice sweet plump cocksuckers – but dang is she made up to portray a swe-e-eet piece of eye candy or what? Stop motion analysis will probably reveal loads of subliminals. Don’t let me catch any millisecond screenshots of monkeys climbing through her window in this vid. But man those lips. Notice how they’re zoomed in the choreography so perfectly ›››

  19. Roosh, are you currently in Kiev? I think I’ve seen you in the subway yesterday

  20. Sounds like you’re at the precipace of a profound spiritual journey. …women, careers, bread makers…all emptiness, as Solomon would say. Read Matthew.

  21. The blog and most comments here are clinical cases of mental slavery….to the societal brainwash and to the need for women.
    How old are these people…still in the 20s?
    Why in the hell would one need ANOTHER person near them to feel complete or for their life to be interesting? Another person is and always will be what they’re: just a stranger (who can’t be trusted, ever).
    Seems like there’s overwhelming longing here is to marry and settle down, ha….well, you need’ll a big cushy chair then, first (bought in local Walmart, hopefully), because your future fat arse will need one to comfortably sit in all day, once you get stuck with someone, start getting fat and portly, surround yourself with a bunch of useless brats, and all the “consumer goods” that will be required for your wifey and brood and for yourself not to get bored to the point of killing yourself. Then, some big corporation will have you by the balls, that’s for sure. Don’t delude yourself: that dream honest country girl will eventually skin you good (your money), and you’ll be back to square one (minus the money). Really LOL at this blog, the view from a feminist….just not from Omeerika. Seems like everyone here is ready for Walmart. And all the whining about women oppressing them….if you don’t like society (which one can easily imagine) go build a cabin somewhere remote, be your own fate.

  22. Its just time for a new “why.”
    Many americans get their first divorce out of the way around your age, and experience the same existential crisis… they return to the bar sluts saying ” this time, Im putting myself first.” You did it the right way. No manhating ex wife torturing your kids while you pay her child support.
    Find a bigger dream. Ten million dollar business. Private schools for young men. Conservative charities. Build a new community in Latin America.
    Theres a book called “flow” that states our human brain is too smart for its own good. Its natural course of action is entropy: to turn in on itself and deny its own purpose. The only solution is to keep the brain feeding on gratifying processes. Find a bigger purpose. Break that down into daily microhabits. Enjoy the knowledge, triumphs, struggles, friends, and rewards you encounter along the way.

  23. I feel bad for you, son, but you can’t have the cake and eat it .Swallow the black pill comes with a price. To lose all illusions , to see through all the myths and lies , to see the world as it is ,to stop believing in fairy tales doesn’t make happy.
    It’s called the black pill for a reason.

  24. Roosh cmon, life could always be worse. You could have been a coward and chosen to remain in your normal life with your normal job and your likely normal wife who would likely be youre ex wife at this point and i gurantee you if that was the case youd be an even more broken lonely man than you percieve yourself to be now and with added child support payments and alimony.
    Get the fuck up son your not dead yet. Go get your T checked and see a psychologist.

  25. I feel ya bro.
    I have been living in Asia for nearly a decade. Returning to the broken west isn’t really an option but living in Asia I’m forever an outsider by race alone.
    Men need to band together and accomplish things together.
    Without a strong social circle of men going into the same unique direction life is a mere hedonistic train on the route to nowhere…
    Sure my life is comfy but it’s deeply empty at the same time.

  26. I know that ache Roosh. It nearly destroyed me. Thinking life should be fuller than it is, more meaningful. Well guess what? It’s as fulfilling and meaningful as you decide that it’s going to be. My life changed with the birth of mine and my wife’s first child. Suddenly, it wasn’t about me anymore. Does the child magically make you happy? Of course not. What gives me satisfaction and pleasure is providing for my wife and child. I do have my own needs, but through sacrifice of my energy, love, and treasure I have found meaning, and more importantly PURPOSE. Others depend on me, they need me. I give to them freely a comfortable life and toil at the helm of my small ship. I only ask for respect and reasonable obedience.
    Try giving of yourself completely. Change someone’s life for the better, we have opportunities everyday. Treat people as Christ would. Compassion when needed and a stern rebuke when required. Pray for peace, inner and outer throughout the day, reject the world and realize you are outside of it spiritually. Work for the day of our promised reward.
    Jim

  27. I know that ache Roosh. It nearly destroyed me. Thinking life should be fuller than it is, more meaningful. Well guess what? It’s as fulfilling and meaningful as you decide that it’s going to be. My life changed with the birth of mine and my wife’s first child. Suddenly, it wasn’t about me anymore. Does the child magically make you happy? Of course not. What gives me satisfaction and pleasure is providing for my wife and child. I do have my own needs, but through sacrifice of my energy, love, and treasure I have found meaning, and more importantly PURPOSE. Others depend on me, they need me. I give to them freely a comfortable life and toil at the helm of my small ship. I only ask for respect and reasonable obedience.
    Try giving of yourself completely. Change someone’s life for the better, we have opportunities everyday. Treat people as Christ would. Compassion when needed and a stern rebuke when required. Pray for peace, inner and outer throughout the day, reject the world and realize you are outside of it spiritually. Work for the day of our promised reward.
    Jim

  28. The longing you’re experiencing can only be filled by a relationship with your Creator through Jesus Christ.

  29. I feel Roosh here. When you pass 40 and are alone, even the things you once enjoyed become negative. My job has me traveling all over the place, I’ve spent time in about 15 states and probably 10 different countries. I used to love it, now it is a an existential drag. Every time I board a flight it hits me: I have to solid foundation, no home base. No one there for me to return to. I slayed for years but now I’m a mild aged dude with no hair just working a somewhat above average job, I wish I had a locked a plain Jane down. A couple of years ago I was filled with anger about it at everything. Now I’m just melancholy.

    1. well duh, if you know what you are missing, why are you whining and not pursuing it? You only have one life, why are you not doing for yourself what you want and instead living a path that you are not happy with. no one can make you happy, except you. make a change, if not now, then when? Why not? if scared to, why?

  30. I struggle financially every day to suppert the wife and the kids. I work 14 hours a day includind saturdays, coincidentally in Argentina.I hate it but i know deep down the sttrugle gives me an spiritual fillfilmeny which i would not know how to replace should i win the lottery. Life is weird

  31. The face that you can love that you search for is…your own. So far you have looked for it everywhere else but where it is, in you.
    Accept yourself and your work in this life. Look for a woman who will help you. Not a woman who gives you euphoria, lights all the cylinders and all that jazz. No, just a woman who will help you. Let her be in your life, let the kids come too. It is not too late, you could still find someone to be your helpmate.
    Don’t look to have glorious feelings of love for her. Just be happy that you are there to help each other. Over time, you will develop feelings for her that are of a different quality, a different kind of love. Be grateful for these when they come.
    Here let Osho explain:

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